I am going to be honest here and say that in my 'real' life I have only a very small group of friends that I have only known for a couple of years. I also have a very small family, with only my parents reasonably close by. I grew up moving every few years and I never really learnt how to develop and maintain long lasting friendships. Which is one of the reason's that all of you are so important to me. And one of the reasons that I so appreciate being able to share things with you.
You all helped me through my miscarriages so much and I am so grateful for that. And I feel bad asking for yet more. But today we got some bad news about this pregnancy and we don't know what to do. All we know at this stage is that we have to spend the next couple of days trying to decided whether we have further tests that could mean risking losing this baby. And that no matter what happens next, I won't at any point again be able to just relax about this pregnancy.
I don't want to go on about this, at least not until we know more. But I wanted to tell you, because a huge part of me wants to take down yesterdays post and although I won't, I am going to close the comments for it.