These new cushions were supposed to debut at The Little Northen Contemporary Craft Fair today (sister of the Great Northern Contemporary Craft Fair - which I will be at!) but annoyingly a broken down car and a tow truck meant that neither the cushions or I made it. Which was not part of todays plan! The cushions will be available at The Contemporary Craft Festival in Bovey Tracey though, along with matching quilts.
It's funny, while I was writing this I checked the pre-publishing preview to see how the images looked, and a post from my first few weeks of pregnancy with Lily came up as a suggested post.
Only yesterday Lily asked me properly for the first time about my 7 miscarriages. She wanted to know what it felt like, and why I had them and whether I was upset each time.
At the time of the miscarriages they almost defined me, they were such a major part of my life. But I was surprised to realise today, just how long it's been since I've really thought about them.
We have our two girls and we're very grateful, but we still wish we'd been able to have four. While I was talking to Lily I remembered just how bad I had felt at the time. And then reading the post just now, about the early weeks of my pregnancy with Lily brought it back even more. It really is a reminder of how even the strongest pain does eventually ease. I can't imagine not feeling the awful pain I feel when I think about my Mum's death. But reading this and talking to Lily has made me realise that there will come a time when I can think about Mum without hurting the way I do now.
All that from a post about new cushions and a car breaking down! Who says blogging is a waste of time!