These wonderful books were delivered today and I'm almost too scared to look at them properly. I keep picking them up and flicking through them but I want to savour them and the combination of tv, baby and husband makes that impossible. I need a warm, comfortable armchair, in a well lit corner, with a glass of wine and a note pad so that I can jot down any ideas sparked by this wonderful inspiration. Instead I have a sofa covered in sweet wrappers (albeit Lindt orange chocolate!), fabric remnants (the detrious of a failed craft attempt) and magazines, in semi darkness, due to my side lamp having to be moved to fit the christmas tree in, and then one set of christmas lights dieing yesterday! I have to have the ceiling light on at the moment, and this is something that I totally agree with Alicia at Posy Gets Cosy on - ceiling lights are indeed evil! Atmosphere? Sure if work canteens are your thing.
I truly love being a mom, it took a long time to happen and has been a daily joy. But I do miss having time. I miss being able to chose what to do with my free time. I miss getting up in the morning with a plan that I can stick to. I miss spending all day in my workroom, in my pj's. I miss staying up all night working because I'm on a roll, and it doesn't matter what time I get up the next day. I love what all of that has been replaced with (a daughter who laughs at her own farts - what could beat that?) but I do sometimes wish there was room for a bit of a compromise. And I wanna be able to read my books!