First of all can I say that every single comment that I have received in the last 2 weeks has touched my heart and soul. Both Jim and I have been moved to tears on a number of occasions by the amount of love and support that you have all graced us with. I need you all to know that your words have had a real affect on how we have coped with the events of the last week. At our loneliest moments, when we have felt that we were the only ones here, another comment has been posted and we have been pulled back into your warm embrace. And for that we will forever be grateful
I am the sort of person that withdraws when in pain. I find it hard to allow anybody close and most people that know me know that I need my distance in order to heal. I wish this wasn't the case and I am aware that it can make the people around me feel useless and frustrated. My poor mother has had to listen to me say that I don't want a hug, again and again in the last week. And as a mother, I can well imagine how hard it is to not be allowed to hug your child when she is in such pain. I'm sorry Mom.
But not withdrawing from here , has allowed me, from a safe distance to let you all in. And in turn has taught me that I need to learn to do that far more in my 'real' life. And I really will try. Although it may take a while.
That said, I think that it's time to get back to some nice stuff. I need this little part of my world to be nice and pretty and ordered. I need it to look the way I want and I need to pretend, a little, that things aren't all doom and gloom. And I need to say (for my sake only - I know no one else thinks it) that it doesn't mean that everything is ok, just that I want it to seem it.
I bought these today. And I'm relieved to tell you that even as lousy as I'm feeling, I can still appreciate some good ribbon!
And oh wow! Grey ricrac! I have no idea why I love it so much, but I really do. It really did make me smile when I saw it today. Does that make me bad?
I meant to show you this cat a week ago. He's called Taking the Liberty and he's a bit of a dandy.
The fabrics are all Liberty Lawns with a matching button on his felt collar. He's only little but he's big on style.
Jim loves the patchwork wall so I've agreed to keep it for a while. I have to admit that I don't hate it today, but we'll see how I feel in the next few days (or more to the point, we'll see if I ever work up the energy to do anything about it!!).
And finally, Bella has been staying with my mom for the last 3 days because not only have we been going through all the crappy stuff but Jim has also been ill and between us we simply could not look after Bella as well as she deserves. I've felt rotten about not having her here, but she absolutely loves staying with my folks and is spoilt rotten so I know I don't need to feel too bad. We do however miss her like crazy and have found ourselves looking through her photo albums a lot. So this photo is to make us feel better - because it does make us feel better when we see how wonderful she is. Especially in her new green Wellington Boots!
(sorry for the disjointedness (it's a word!) of the post.)
